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Post by Senbecc on Nov 16, 2006 21:17:57 GMT -5
Well then... group *hug*! I saw you tried to call Wren, another time OK?...Just don't have a lengthy conversation in me right now. I'm supposed to be happy for him, I'm supposed to cry...They tell me to be happy, they tell me to be sad...I'm neither, just cold...and numb. How are you supposed to have two emotions at the same time?
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Post by Senbecc on Nov 16, 2006 21:19:04 GMT -5
Well then... group *hug*! I like that idea. *hugs all around* Your a hugger...I'll give you that. lol
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Post by Senbecc on Nov 16, 2006 21:20:06 GMT -5
I'm gonna take another shower...It'll be the third one I think. I'm gonna go to work and try to get my mind off this soon.
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Post by wren on Nov 16, 2006 21:22:34 GMT -5
Well then... group *hug*! I saw you tried to call Wren, another time OK?...Just don't have a lengthy conversation in me right now. I'm supposed to be happy for him, I'm supposed to cry...They tell me to be happy, they tell me to be sad...I'm neither, just cold...and numb. How are you supposed to have two emotions at the same time? You take a moment at a time, a breath at a time, an emotion at a time... remember, Druid mine?
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Post by Senbecc on Nov 16, 2006 21:39:23 GMT -5
I saw you tried to call Wren, another time OK?...Just don't have a lengthy conversation in me right now. I'm supposed to be happy for him, I'm supposed to cry...They tell me to be happy, they tell me to be sad...I'm neither, just cold...and numb. How are you supposed to have two emotions at the same time? You take a moment at a time, a breath at a time, an emotion at a time... remember, Druid mine? I'll have to face them all tomorrow, they'll want me to say *something*...So I suppose I spend ten hours figuring that one out.
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Post by Senbecc on Nov 16, 2006 21:42:05 GMT -5
Oh, I find I am at loss to find adequate words here... My heart goes out to you and his family... Rowan I didn't see this one, words don't really get there anyway, its more the intentions behind the words...Thank you.
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Post by wren on Nov 16, 2006 21:42:06 GMT -5
Just say what's in your heart at the moment, John. Let the warrior-poet speak for the man...
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Post by ihrian on Nov 16, 2006 21:47:44 GMT -5
Oh, Sen, im so sorry, that’s terrible. I can hardly relate to you, ive not had much death in my life so far, but I know its hard, you try feeling happy but, it sucks, and…im sorry…take what time you need to get thru this, we understand…we’re always here for ya *hugs*
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Post by Senbecc on Nov 16, 2006 21:49:54 GMT -5
Oh, Sen, im so sorry, that’s terrible. I can hardly relate to you, ive not had much death in my life so far, but I know its hard, you try feeling happy but, it sucks, and…im sorry…take what time you need to get thru this, we understand…we’re always here for ya *hugs* You made me smile...Your magic is strong indeed. Thank you.
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Post by ihrian on Nov 16, 2006 21:55:18 GMT -5
always welcome, of course...and if i made u smile, then im happy
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Post by keltickelton on Nov 16, 2006 22:18:05 GMT -5
John, words are akward and insufficient. I have no doubt that he passed well. Honor the choice and the power of his death! I would be especially open to his spirit between now and your rites. Please allow your self some space and time to grieve as it comes. Strength is not in holding back the grief, but letting it out, while seeking mental clarity as well, while you keep your feet on the ground and do what you have to do. Spiritual clarity will come also through the movement of emotion. As a practioner, I would want to cry it out, before the ceremony. I will send you energy now! If there's anything else we can do, please don't be hesitant. But love and good intent are focused towards you now. Recieve it please, and use it to break through instead of down. My heart and spirit is with you. Everything evolves and cycles, but death is no hindrance for love. My words are not empty. Face life and death now and see and feel! Receive the lesson of the dark night of the soul! Trust yourself and your path and learn what you can from this. If it has a hint of ruthlessness in it, the dark Goddess is with me. I'd avise you to take a clear look at everything, especially your feelings. I'd even take off work if that's possible. But at some point, you'll have to make willing place for it, and trust yourself to go through. You're welcome to message me. Blessed be.[/font]
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Post by Lady Anastasia on Nov 16, 2006 22:26:17 GMT -5
Kelton... always so wise... Always making me think.. Love you Kelton.. and, everyone else here... Sending the love along with the light....
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Post by Senbecc on Nov 16, 2006 22:30:57 GMT -5
John, words are akward and insufficient. I have no doubt that he passed well. Honor the choice and the power of his death! I would be especially open to his spirit between now and your rites. Please allow your self some space and time to grieve as it comes. Strength is not in holding back the grief, but letting it out, while seeking mental clarity as well, while you keep your feet on the ground and do what you have to do. Spiritual clarity will come also through the movement of emotion. As a practioner, I would want to cry it out, before the ceremony. I will send you energy now! If there's anything else we can do, please don't be hesitant. But love and good intent are focused towards you now. Recieve it please, and use it to break through instead of down. My heart and spirit is with you. Everything evolves and cycles, but death is no hindrance for love. My words are not empty. Face life and death now and see and feel! Receive the lesson of the dark night of the soul! Trust yourself and your path and learn what you can from this. If it has a hint of ruthlessness in it, the dark Goddess is with me. I'd avise you to take a clear look at everything, especially your feelings. I'd even take off work if that's possible. But at some point, you'll have to make willing place for it, and trust yourself to go through. You're welcome to message me. Blessed be. [/font][/quote] Your words are anything but empty, but I guess I'm just having trouble finding my outlet I guess. I want to cry, but it won't come, I want to be happy, but happy seems a distant misty memory...It will come I'm sure. Thanks Kelton this helped allot.
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Post by wren on Nov 16, 2006 22:37:30 GMT -5
It is an old Irish belief that the dead must wait with us until the following Samhain, when they can at last pass between the veils. Know then that, as he chose you to lead, so too Charlie will stand beside you over the next year as you find your way. It is in honor of him that you do this. You will not fill his shoes. You have your own with which to walk. Walk tall, fair Druid, and walk in truth… the truth that is in your soul, even when you cannot feel it in your heart.
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Post by Senbecc on Nov 16, 2006 22:41:26 GMT -5
It is an old Irish belief that the dead must wait with us until the following Samhain, when they can at last pass between the veils. Know then that, as he chose you to lead, so too Charlie will stand beside you over the next year as you find your way. It is in honor of him that you do this. You will not fill his shoes. You have your own with which to walk. Walk tall, fair Druid, and walk in truth… the truth that is in your soul, even when you cannot feel it in your heart. I may use part of this tomorrow if it's OK, since I can only seem to draw a blank. All the thoughts by everyone are appriciated, all the light being sent is felt and appriciated as well.
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