Post by ihrian on Jan 13, 2007 7:12:01 GMT -5
hmm..i need to say this, its eating away at me
i had a friend, who i met last march. he was only in year 8, two years younger than me, but i came to really like him, i spent most of my time with him, and it was perfect. we both play violin, so we did this one amazing duet, a russian piece called korobushka. he introduced me to a lot of great music, from artists i knew about but never really listened to..im talking violinists and such, Vanessa-Mae, Bond and Wild. always we were together, he'd hug me, play with my hair, and he was fantastic to talk to. we never went out together, although no one believed us. he gave the best hugs but then, i dont know what happened, but we seemed to draw slowly apart, little things like he wouldnt talk so much to me or we'd have nothing much to say. i slowly became to notice that i didnt depend so much on his company, whereas before i used to hate coming home from school coz it meant i wouldnt see him, and weekends sucked comletely. i was fine for over 2 months afterward, i havnt talked to him in over a month at the moment. but this last week ive found myself missing him more and more. certain things remind me of him, some songs, and pieces that we used muck around on, seeing if it would sound any good with two parts two it. at the moment i wish dearly to see him, for him to hold me in his arms just once, like he used to.. but at the same time i know that in 2 weeks when school goes back i will not seek him out straight away, things changed and i now see i missed out on too much last year by being with him so much. i know this is true, but it doesnt help my feeling lonely. it sucks coz i had a most fantastic 6 weeks of holidays so far and bout a month before that without him in my thoughts that its made me think im really happy. why'd it have to come back to me now
now that is completely unlike me, but i needed to say it, for myself..
but other than that, i must say im rather happy tonight, i got my new cd this arvo and am listening to it i went to the pub on wednesday and discovered that although i dont know a few of the songs they play, i can pick it up after the first few bars and join in, which makes it all the more fun because im playing something new, with a bunch of new friends. me and the main singer/guitarist had a bit of a fiddling duel, he plays a bit of violin, and led us through a set of tunes, thinking maybe i'd stop after the first few...nope not me, i found that i knew every one of them, they were stored somewhere in my mind, and even if i never play them i was still able to keep up with them! i honestly cant express how much i enjoy those sessions, its a most amazing atmosphere. he came up to me afterwards to thank me for coming, that it was fantastic to see younger people coming along each week and it warms him that younger people enjoy irish music as he does, enough to come along each week to play. i told him it was my greatest pleasure to come along, that its something ive been wishing to do for a very long time. he has a cd, its fantastic, he writes a lot of his own stuff, and its really good..i bought it
and last of all, our teams playing at home this weekend, in the soccer-Queensland versus Sydney, and we're going!! its been a while since we all went, and its not even all of us goin this time coz robyn, who usually organises it and tells us when it is, is currently in Holland visiting family, so she misses out and a couple of others cant make it but it will still be awesome, finally get to pull on the supporter shirt again!! its bright orange
ahh well, thats me for tonight i think i shall sleep soon
i had a friend, who i met last march. he was only in year 8, two years younger than me, but i came to really like him, i spent most of my time with him, and it was perfect. we both play violin, so we did this one amazing duet, a russian piece called korobushka. he introduced me to a lot of great music, from artists i knew about but never really listened to..im talking violinists and such, Vanessa-Mae, Bond and Wild. always we were together, he'd hug me, play with my hair, and he was fantastic to talk to. we never went out together, although no one believed us. he gave the best hugs but then, i dont know what happened, but we seemed to draw slowly apart, little things like he wouldnt talk so much to me or we'd have nothing much to say. i slowly became to notice that i didnt depend so much on his company, whereas before i used to hate coming home from school coz it meant i wouldnt see him, and weekends sucked comletely. i was fine for over 2 months afterward, i havnt talked to him in over a month at the moment. but this last week ive found myself missing him more and more. certain things remind me of him, some songs, and pieces that we used muck around on, seeing if it would sound any good with two parts two it. at the moment i wish dearly to see him, for him to hold me in his arms just once, like he used to.. but at the same time i know that in 2 weeks when school goes back i will not seek him out straight away, things changed and i now see i missed out on too much last year by being with him so much. i know this is true, but it doesnt help my feeling lonely. it sucks coz i had a most fantastic 6 weeks of holidays so far and bout a month before that without him in my thoughts that its made me think im really happy. why'd it have to come back to me now
now that is completely unlike me, but i needed to say it, for myself..
but other than that, i must say im rather happy tonight, i got my new cd this arvo and am listening to it i went to the pub on wednesday and discovered that although i dont know a few of the songs they play, i can pick it up after the first few bars and join in, which makes it all the more fun because im playing something new, with a bunch of new friends. me and the main singer/guitarist had a bit of a fiddling duel, he plays a bit of violin, and led us through a set of tunes, thinking maybe i'd stop after the first few...nope not me, i found that i knew every one of them, they were stored somewhere in my mind, and even if i never play them i was still able to keep up with them! i honestly cant express how much i enjoy those sessions, its a most amazing atmosphere. he came up to me afterwards to thank me for coming, that it was fantastic to see younger people coming along each week and it warms him that younger people enjoy irish music as he does, enough to come along each week to play. i told him it was my greatest pleasure to come along, that its something ive been wishing to do for a very long time. he has a cd, its fantastic, he writes a lot of his own stuff, and its really good..i bought it
and last of all, our teams playing at home this weekend, in the soccer-Queensland versus Sydney, and we're going!! its been a while since we all went, and its not even all of us goin this time coz robyn, who usually organises it and tells us when it is, is currently in Holland visiting family, so she misses out and a couple of others cant make it but it will still be awesome, finally get to pull on the supporter shirt again!! its bright orange
ahh well, thats me for tonight i think i shall sleep soon