Okay the beginning of this semester was easy to start off with, but now its been a downhill race to keep up with a multimedia class and public speaking by pulling my speeches out of my ass....
Although I don't need an A in the class I need at least a C to pass and my dad says thats okay; so dose my mom. ^-^
But whats been bothering me lately is the girl in Multi-media class Jennie and her negative attitude to wards everything.
For some reason she turned people off and I couldn't tell why at first, but then I kept hearing her say the same things, "I can't do this!", or "I don't belong in this class....", or even this " My art doesn't look good."
She damens her work, she looks down on herself, and she's manipulative with the teacher but I think the teacher sees right through it.
Whats funny is the rest of us (6) at the table are so positive about the stuff we do, even if we think our art looks bad we still smile anyways knowing that it got done and that we had to look from a different perspective to see the beauty of what we created.
I think her negative energy is rubbing off on me since I sit next to her, and thats probably why I feel sick too. So I'll try to get rid of this negative cloud somehow and feel better.
Lastnight was a wonderful experience because I met another Pagan face to face, of course my friends are Pagans but Jackies stepmom has been practicing witch craft that has been passed down in the family. =D
After work lastnight I got to chat for an hour and a half with her about some random sucbjects and on Jackies request I got to hear about the handfasting cerimony they had.
I didn't know during the ceromony you were supposed to jump over a broom.
When I met her I felt a bit intimidated at first because I felt old energy in the room eminating from her, but when we found common ground I felt connected to her.
An experience I will never forget and I've been invited to come back as well. =D
Thursday I did a meditation to see if I could find a male God, I got a feeling from Danu that now is time to look for him and that I was ready for something.
I did the meditation in the way I like to always, with a visualization of sitting under a special tree. My toes become roots and dig themselfs into the ground while the branches of the tree encircle my body to protect me as I gose on my way.
Suddenly my body begins to shift as my legs disconnect from the knee up and I become a white owl. The tree tells me to fly out over the sea and keep the sun, however I was not to fly low to the sea nor fly to high above the clouds; I had to stay in the middle ground.
I flew over the sea staying the sun in my sights and felt a great happiness seeing it, in my mind someone whom I couldn't see smiled lightly. I suppose I'm not supposed to see him yet but he wants me to know he is there watching.
I got the sense that it was a sun god of some kind, no name was disclosed nor any image. I'm happy though to know another god is going to choose me. ^-^
Blue: I visited a friend tonight and a opossum walked across my path as I went to her door....then when I came home the same thing happened but as I walked to my own door. What an interesting coincidence! I will take the advice it gives me.
Oct 19, 2015 23:42:46 GMT -5
kuro: xool be sure to vist yomi
Dec 13, 2015 3:29:59 GMT -5
fucked up: bleh
Feb 24, 2016 22:16:53 GMT -5
please answer : do it really work
Sept 2, 2016 4:10:53 GMT -5
Madi: what if you only own a gold ring?
Dec 25, 2016 1:56:41 GMT -5
Kuro Tenshi: How can one prove to themself that magic is real?
Apr 18, 2017 18:17:22 GMT -5
Obviously: One can prove that magic works to themselves by attempting different spells and having positive results that match up with their intention. This is how one proves anything by use of experiment. Anything other than that is simple self-delusion.
Jul 1, 2017 14:01:02 GMT -5
Capricorn: Interesting... Does this thing really works? I've tried the circle but never worked for me... If this thing is true please reply back. Thanks
Jul 26, 2017 10:37:02 GMT -5
Ding Dong: Is there a spell where I can just say it while my eye's are closed without making circles and all that?
Jan 21, 2018 2:33:01 GMT -5