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Post by Senbecc on Oct 29, 2006 21:18:47 GMT -5
Wow, this is going to be the hardest part of all this. In the old Irish texts it is taught that a true leader or king must be flawless in mind and body in order to be worthy of his kingship. I am no longer worthy of that honor. To much has happened to fast for me to be able to cope with it all I suppose. I have a friend who's going to buy this computer and get it out of my house once and for all, as it only represents heartbreak and pain to me and I've had enough of that for a good long while. Please try not to hate me for my weakness.
I've left the grove as well, as I will never be worthy of their leadership either. I understand that this is a weak man's way but my strength has failed me I'm afraid.
I've already E-mailed Wren and told her the situation. She will lead this site into a new horizon which will be beneficial to all. Wren, I would advise Lala as your new Global Mod. I trust her and I trust her judgment whole heartedly, but that decision is yours to make now.
Marcus....Cu Chulainn...The hound, what can I say? I know how mad your going to be, and I don't know how your opinions of me will change after this but its something I have to do if I'm ever to find who I am again and be whole. I know you've been here longer, but Wren is an experienced Ban-Drui and an experienced woman, and she will need a right hand. You two are ready for this challenge I know you are.
Lala of the golden hair...(Even if you do dye it) you who have never taken a step right. You have brought more new members in the last few days then most ever have and I thank you. This clan must be allowed to thrive. This site is a very effective learning tool for the minds, knowledge is nourishment for the mind, and I hope you will continue to be a part of that.
To my people. It is you who make the site and that is the bottom line. I have always tried to lead by example, but this is one I hope others don't follow. You are the land of PaganMystics, and I am humbled to have known each of you. Many many years from now, when I am asked when was your proudest moment John? I will answer, then...When I was a Druid...And I walked among giants. I have grown to love each of you as my own family and pray with all my soul that you will find a way to forgive my running.
I love you all
Senbecc...Resident Druid and Filidh
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Post by Lady Anastasia on Oct 29, 2006 21:31:09 GMT -5
Proud, stubborn, bull headed man.....When I tried to leave this place, you made me come back, and, now you are the one leaving... I know and I understand what you are doing, and why you are doing it, only, I wish for you to make this a leave of absense, a break, not a forever thing....You can not give up who you are, and, you must find a way to learn from the experiences that you've had....
I am truly honored to have happened across you while on my path, and, I love and respect you... I want you to remember that... You are stronger than this, don't let it defeat you......
Love and Light
lala
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Post by Senbecc on Oct 29, 2006 21:39:45 GMT -5
Proud, stubborn, bull headed man.....When I tried to leave this place, you made me come back, and, now you are the one leaving... I know and I understand what you are doing, and why you are doing it, only, I wish for you to make this a leave of absence, a break, not a forever thing....You can not give up who you are, and, you must find a way to learn from the experiences that you've had.... I am truly honored to have happened across you while on my path, and, I love and respect you... I want you to remember that... You are stronger than this, don't let it defeat you...... Love and Light lala I've advised you for a reason Lala, you are a woman with a heart as big as Ireland. Like I said there are Internet cafes and things of that nature. I'll stop in and post my thoughts from time to time. If for all the pain there is never anything to show, I will always look back on it and smile for having known you and everyone else on this site. I know how this looks, but I just can't look to the future if I dwell in the past. When I pay a visit to the cafe you will be the first on my e-mail list  I am so glad I met you too, with you there isn't a single regret, not one. The way you can help me now is to help my mods build an empire, something we can all be proud of. |
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Post by wren on Oct 30, 2006 8:35:16 GMT -5
My dearest friend,
Spend your time in the wilderness. Heal and refresh yourself. Take what you need and all the time it takes. Search for the grail but know the answer lies within you. And, know you will never leave PM for you shall always be in our hearts. And, in your heart, you shall always be Drui. I am humbled by your request but will work only to keep this place in readiness for the day you return from the woodlands to lead us again.
And, if I ever have the pleasure of meeting you face to face, I'll smack you hard... right after I hug the stuffing out of you!
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Post by Senbecc on Oct 30, 2006 8:48:45 GMT -5
My dearest friend, Spend your time in the wilderness. Heal and refresh yourself. Take what you need and all the time it takes. Search for the grail but know the answer lies within you. And, know you will never leave PM for you shall always be in our hearts. And, in your heart, you shall always be Drui. I am humbled by your request but will work only to keep this place in readiness for the day you return from the woodlands to lead us again. And, if I ever have the pleasure of meeting you face to face, I'll smack you hard... right after I hug the stuffing out of you! Your right Wren, each of you will always be in my heart and in my soul...I wish it didn't need to be this way, but I just need to find myself again... Power of the Dogdha's heart be with you Wren...And me.  |
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Post by Lady Anastasia on Oct 30, 2006 10:26:59 GMT -5
I'm going to start crying again
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Post by wren on Oct 30, 2006 10:30:56 GMT -5
I still am!
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Post by Silver on Oct 31, 2006 0:09:17 GMT -5
Wow, this is going to be the hardest part of all this. In the old Irish texts it is taught that a true leader or king must be flawless in mind and body in order to be worthy of his kingship. I am no longer worthy of that honor. To much has happened to fast for me to be able to cope with it all I suppose. I have a friend who's going to buy this computer and get it out of my house once and for all, as it only represents heartbreak and pain to me and I've had enough of that for a good long while. Please try not to hate me for my weakness. I've left the grove as well, as I will never be worthy of their leadership either. I understand that this is a weak man's way but my strength has failed me I'm afraid. I've already E-mailed Wren and told her the situation. She will lead this site into a new horizon which will be beneficial to all. Wren, I would advise Lala as your new Global Mod. I trust her and I trust her judgment whole heartedly, but that decision is yours to make now. Marcus....Cu Chulainn...The hound, what can I say? I know how mad your going to be, and I don't know how your opinions of me will change after this but its something I have to do if I'm ever to find who I am again and be whole. I know you've been here longer, but Wren is an experienced Ban-Drui and an experienced woman, and she will need a right hand. You two are ready for this challenge I know you are. Lala of the golden hair...(Even if you do dye it) you who have never taken a step right. You have brought more new members in the last few days then most ever have and I thank you. This clan must be allowed to thrive. This site is a very effective learning tool for the minds, knowledge is nourishment for the mind, and I hope you will continue to be a part of that. To my people. It is you who make the site and that is the bottom line. I have always tried to lead by example, but this is one I hope others don't follow. You are the land of PaganMystics, and I am humbled to have known each of you. Many many years from now, when I am asked when was your proudest moment John? I will answer, then...When I was a Druid...And I walked among giants. I have grown to love each of you as my own family and pray with all my soul that you will find a way to forgive my running. I love you all Senbecc...Resident Druid and Filidh I dont know what to say here I am torn between wishing you everything you need to find your way back to us, and telling you that no matter how far you go, that you will only find yourself when you return here. I do my dedication to the Goddess tomorrow night Sen and I am not sure that you realize how much of a part you played in guideing me where I needed to be in my spiritual life as well as my life outside this computer. I do not pretend to know what has happened nor what I missed somehow by dealing with my life issues , but I can tell you this much, I know now more then ever that The Goddess has a plan for everything, and if your meant to travel far from us to find that part of you which, you feel is lost then, I can do nothing but pray to the goddess that your find what you seek quickly and that you know, that your wanted, needed and dearly loved and respected here, and will be severly missed. As with all loyal to their leader, we will be here waiting for your return M'Lord and in my heart I know that you will return to us and what is such a part of your heart, this kingdom that you built with such care and love and dedication to fairness and truth and learning. I have one last thought for you my friend and lord, those chosen of the goddess's and gods follow a far different path then mear mortals and you Sen are no mear mortal, and your calling will guide you through what ever crisis of faith that has you at the moment. Your friend and servant FlamingSilverWolf |
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Post by ihrian on Oct 31, 2006 0:51:59 GMT -5
wow..i dont know what to say. i make my way back, and you're leaving? but but but...*stomps feet, crosses arms and frowns in very childish way* i cant begin to imagine what has happened, Senbecc, to make this happen, nor do i want to know, tis none of my business. all i can say is that u'll be sorely missed, i mean it. this community, everyone in it, is special and is not complete without you. you will be back, i hope, and no matter how much i think, "when" you were a druid, you cant stop believing at heart. you cant stop appreciating life and nature and beauty. you helped me while i was here, learning all i could, and it wont be forgotten. i accept that life can be hard, but i cant know it yet, hell, im only 15. i can only hope that you will again find yourself and come back  , but at the same time not change from the wonderful person u are. miss you Erin |
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Post by wren on Nov 1, 2006 10:27:49 GMT -5
Safe passage, deep visions, and a triumphant return!
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Post by wiccafairey on Nov 1, 2006 12:45:39 GMT -5
Do what you must do to make yourself and your soul whole again. I must say thank you,I have learned alot from you. And am sad I will not be able to read your post anymore. Raise your head and smile,spread your wings,and learn from what you have gone through. I do hope your path will bring you back here even its just to say hi.
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Post by wiccafairey on Nov 1, 2006 12:46:33 GMT -5
REMEMBER: Not all who wander are lost.
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Post by Senbecc on Nov 1, 2006 12:48:51 GMT -5
Do what you must do to make yourself and your soul whole again. I must say thank you,I have learned alot from you. And am sad I will not be able to read your post anymore. Raise your head and smile,spread your wings,and learn from what you have gone through. I do hope your path will bring you back here even its just to say hi. I won't be leaving except to go on my 9 day journey, but am glad to see your posts again...It does me well to see Estrie as well! Welcome back both of you! |
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Post by Lady Anastasia on Nov 1, 2006 13:30:08 GMT -5
oh, thank the goddess that the tears can stop now.... John, I will give my support in any way that I can....Love and Light to you
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Post by Senbecc on Nov 1, 2006 13:31:40 GMT -5
oh, thank the goddess that the tears can stop now.... John, I will give my support in any way that I can....Love and Light to you Light n Laugter to you...Love I wouldn't wish on my worst enemy. |
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