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Post by nevyn on Mar 28, 2007 9:19:36 GMT -5
more on queen of swords...
The Queen of Swords has a precise, painstaking style of decision making. She writes lists of pros and cons, applying careful scrutiny to all possible consequences and side-effects before lending her authority to decisions. When this Queen revs into action, her approach is thoroughly prepared and no-nonsense. Every move is planned in advance, with no room for error. Mistakes are abhorrent to her, unless she can correct them before anyone sees them.
This Queen is an absolute perfectionist. Action is a forum for her skills, and may also serve as a platform for acquiring new skills. If so, she is deliberate in what she chooses to learn from these experiences. If her actions require assistance, woe betide her helpers if they are sloppy or careless, as her sharp words will carve them into chunks of meat. She does not suffer fools or slackers. Because of her airy affinity, she is whirlwind of activity, and may seem to have several extra arms and legs. Others struggle to keep pace wit her. This Queen fill fuss and fret over details, and she may over-prepare or over-do. She very rarely makes mistakes, but if she does, she'll repair it herself after a brief spate of agonizing and self-pity. No need to worry about giving her credit - she signs her work with a flourish
so, this ISN'T me...is this something that I need to work on? Yes, especially the first part about the lists and stuff. I know that I need to adopt that attitude more!
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Post by nevyn on Apr 12, 2007 10:25:03 GMT -5
things are looking up for us job wise. I am pretty much assured a season at the Boy Scout camp my FIL is running. He needed someone to run the day care for the counselors' children and has asked me to take the position. I don't know if it is a lock, but the application has been filed and a leave of absence with my work is in the talks...
c. is on his way to an interview that if he gets the position could lead to union in bout 6 months. let's all cross our fingers and toes.....
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Post by nevyn on Apr 19, 2007 8:42:04 GMT -5
got the job with the Boy Scouts, but it won't start until 6/24.
c. is "working" for a temp agency for now. he's not going to be working there for another 2 weeks or so. not sure where money is going to come from, but we just have to keep on keeping on....I've always quoted dorrie....Just keep swimming....
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Post by nevyn on May 21, 2007 8:13:23 GMT -5
one month later...still swimming, but really discouraged. it's been 5 months to the day that he's not been working and I still don't know where the money will come from. We were able to get a small loan, so the car is now legal, but is now broken. I just cannot seem to win for losing. I don't know how much longer I can keep on, I'm really stressed and upset, but if I talk to the "partner" I get how I'm adding to HIS stress. I know that the market for jobs is scarce, but he keeps sabotaging his progress with is pride. we cannot feed the children with pride.
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Post by stormcat on May 21, 2007 10:23:40 GMT -5
I hope things get better for you. I go through periods of everything going wrong too. It's a pisser when your car goes out, can your partner fix it? It seems like all my husband does is fix our cars, and all his friends cars. Meditate on your need, it gives the energies a place to manifest. Let us know how it's going. >^-.-^<
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Post by nevyn on May 23, 2007 9:59:40 GMT -5
beyond his capabilities. working on it now
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Post by stormcat on May 23, 2007 10:35:17 GMT -5
Keep your chin up:) Keeping you in my thoughts->^~.~^<
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Post by nevyn on May 24, 2007 8:54:53 GMT -5
10:55 last evening my very drunk land lord calls looking for money. We've just given him 3000 in the past 2 1/2 months, I know that we still owe but hell, where am I to get more money when I have to pay other bills and feed and clothe the children. Cannot argue with a drunk, I've learned that at least being a child of an alcoholic, but we will be contacting him and explaining that fact when he's sober, let me tell you!
Partner cannot fix the car completely, but can do some work to get it safe (brakes suck!). He's off at an interview for a job. Pays for shit, but it pays and we can go from there.
Cross all appendages, please!
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Post by nevyn on May 26, 2007 9:39:52 GMT -5
he got the job. 9pm-7pm, 40 hrs/week 3 days on 3 days off. that brings in money, but then the money has to go out. electric bills need to be paid by x day, insurance payments, aforementioned landlord..... i guess i need to stop and just focus on the day ahead and not to far in the future.
I keep on meditating when I can and putting out positive energy towards the matter. Things will get better. I think that I will have to plan on a ritual and spell work for one of the nights that c. goes to his job and really spell it out (pun not intended!) for the Spirit.
I have just charted out family. Trying to see where I need to focus my work in our relationships. My 8 y/o is showing signs of pre-puberty and I want a road map. Checked out Linda Goodman's book relationship signs and am trying out her stuff.
Thanks for the support StormCat. I'm keeping you in my thoughts as well!
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Post by stormcat on May 26, 2007 21:25:48 GMT -5
Thanks a bunch! >^..^<
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Post by nevyn on Jun 8, 2007 11:20:37 GMT -5
more of the same shit....now he's lost his job because they decided that he MUST work the one shift that he told them he could NOT work to train. (This is coming from the owner of the business.  Regardless of what his daughter promised, regardless that everyone at the job is pissed because c. WAS promised that he wouldn't have to work the 3-11p/5 days a week shift and he was doing good.) Back to the job hunt and we have to pay the electric company $300 on monday or they come shut us off. I don't know where the money is going to come from and I'm having gyn problems and cannot go to the doctor as we have no insurance. And I am about ready to lose my mind from all the stress. WHY IS THIS HAPPENING TO ME!!!  ? AND WHAT CAN I DO TO STOP THIS? ? |
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Post by stormcat on Jun 9, 2007 21:29:00 GMT -5
Sorry, dear. My husband has quit his job of 23 years, a job with union benefits. To go to work for a temporary company, that costs $600. a month for health insurance, pays $2 more an hour. Which means he'll be making even less money. Why? Because he can't work night shift anymore. He's informed me that the financial burdens will be mine to carry, if I don't, he'll let the house be repo'd. No you're far from alone, believe me.
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Post by nevyn on Jun 12, 2007 8:17:32 GMT -5
oh, I know that I'm not alone, and I 'll pray for you! I live in Massachusetts, ya'see. 3 out of 5 people I know are in the same boat. one has to jump through hoops to be denied here. I hate it, but am kinda stuck right now. my dream is to move back north to somewhere rural New Hampshire (bristol was heaven, just couldn't stay). I know that one cannot move and leave problems behind (life lesson #? - hence my trips from Missouri here and here to Las Vegas and then back and then NH and then back........) but I hate living here in a dying mill town/state. If wishes were horses, we'd be knee deep in horseshit is one of my sayings, but damn! I wish that the money fairy would visit me. Win the lottery or something, although to win the lottery, one needs to buy a ticket. I'd buy 3 acres of land, plop a double wide trailer in the middle and build a house for me and my family....or call Ty and ABC and get them to give me a new life, as I think I could convince them that we need it! I just need a property for them to consider us.....there go those wishes again. anyway....I just keep swimmin'  |
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Post by nevyn on Jun 14, 2007 8:45:08 GMT -5
still swimmin ...getting books, going to buy mom a birthday present and then go home. c. says he's job hunting. deep breathing exercises are my friend. just need to get some meditations on tape or something to get my mind off of this stuff. if i'm going to get everything done, I need to get off my ass, go get my books and get out of here (the library)...
gotta keep on keeping on....
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Post by stormcat on Jun 14, 2007 18:02:53 GMT -5
Well the old man went back to his old job!!! He didn't like having to work 11 hour days. I'm sure relieved, whew. I hope your problems get resolved soon, thinking about you.>^..^<
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